how much do you know about me?

今天去了妈妈的灵位。

看到她的照片，眼眶也变红了。

以为自己隐藏的很好。

最后还是被堂姐发现。

我真的很想你。

妈妈，你知道我有多想你吗？

:(

男朋友总是说都过去了，不要在想。

不可以再哭。爱我就不要哭。

所以现在我也不再跟他说。

晚上一个人偷偷的哭，躲在被子里哭。

心里真的很难受。

好痛好痛。

xoxo,

JY <3

how are you?

it has been two months plus since she's gone.
everything seem so fast, maybe too fast.
ya, i know. people keep telling me its over stop thinking.
but, it isn't as easy as you think.
how many could actually truly understand the feeling?
how much i miss her, how many things i wanna tell her.

i still cry secretly at night.
hide under my blanket like a small baby.
it just hurt so much.

when will the feeling fade?
guess it will remain there forever till the day i leave the world too?
move on, jy.

i'm just pretending to smile even though it hurt so much in the heart.
i want the world to know i'm strong, i can do it.

momma, how're you doing over there? :)

xoxo,
JY <3